The Gift- a near-death experience had changed my life in a split seconds

" It was just a minor cramps, suddenly its getting intense and soon excruciating. I couldn't bear it anymore. I almost gave up."

          Thanks God it's Sunday! My best day of the week. Why? Well for so many reasons, this is the day where I became a Superwoman. Of course the transformation doesn't include with some super powers that will turned me into a sexy lady wearing a super hero costume and flew up for a mission to save the world. I said so, because after six days of hard work which end-tail was a late Saturday Family dinner which ended up to midnight, I am still Alive! Looking forward to the next day, I hit the sack at sharp 3am after a phone call to someone.

          My alarm rang at 5 o'clock in the morning, I jumped off out of bed to get ready for  Sunday Mass. Renewing my faith is one thing I couldn't take for granted. It was a gift. Only after this, my day had started. Work, work, work and work. Sometimes I came to think about it. Am I born for this? Huh,,, maybe. Well let me move on to a deeper sense. My Lunch Date. Hmmm, sounds like one of the noon time variety shows on the television in the Philippines before. For ones in a week, I ate lunch with one of my gifts. I enjoy every meal with whatever food we shared. The best one: Super Yummy Egg Omelet. Why it's scrumptious? That's his secret. He won't even wanna tell me. Oh well, I don't mind. I believed, after several servings, I can tell what makes it yummy. And that's my secret!!! Sssshhhhh.... Lunch was superb! and the rain started to pour like H----. Oh, G. how am I going back to home? of all the days, this was when I didn't bring an umbrella. But good enough I have company. The rain, the cold weather, the lovely tuned of music from his mobile kills the boredom. Rain was thinning and It was time to part. 'Till the next Sunday again.

         I reached home just on time to wrapped up for dinner. Another work is waiting. I feel exhausted, my legs are all tired and heavy. But when work beckons, in the name of service and commitment, I couldn't say 'NO'. My human nature cannot bear it and I have to say , "I need to rest".  The cramps started to come. I thought, a painkiller can kill the pain. Ironically, it didn't.

          I went to bed hoping that sleep can helped it.  It was just a minor cramps, suddenly its getting intense and soon excruciating. I couldn't bear it anymore. I almost gave up. All I can think was I wouldn't be able to see the beauty of another day. That all what's in my mind was my love ones. The best things I dreamt and planned for them and the future that I am building with someone. Those people that crossed me and whom I had crossed by. I grabbed my rosary and lift up everything to HIM.  But in my last thought, I shouldn't give up. Death is not something to be feared of. Death is our greatest enemy that we should face squarely and never be afraid of. Struggling to get up, vision blurred and profusely perspiring, I am still contained. I composed my spirit to fight for it, I got up and changed my clothes. Wanting to call for help, I suddenly felt relief. The pain was gone. Like nothing had been felt. What happen to me? Am I still alive?  As I walked out of my room to get a cup of hot water, I tripped over my laptop cord. And I broke down to tears as I realized, I am Alive. God had given me new life. I felt my purpose, I felt my worth. This is my Gift. The gift of a second life after surviving a near-death encounter.

To my love ones, I am so blessed, to my foes, I forgave, to those I have hurt unintentionally, I ask for your forgiveness and understandings. To my self, I appreciate to value  of the word Rest. I am sorry for not looking after "you" the way I should have to. For no one will ever love me, the way I Love MYSELF... Thank you for the GIFT.

         

A Day to Remember

"the heavens, the oceans and the earth are the witnesses of the sweetest moments shared between two persons as they met the new year being together. These three elements of life continuous to nurture them to the fullest of their dreams"

First of January year 2017, the whole world is celebrating the New Year's Day. To some traditions, this is the day when you have to be at your best, be with someone whom you wanna be 'till the rest of your life, wishing all the closest in your heart, share and make plans for the year ahead.

I was busy arranging the food and drinks we brought over a spread of cloth under a tree nearby the seashore. We found a good place to relax. Listening to the soothing rhythm of our favorite songs and watching the waves kissing the shore. Laughter of people around filled the air. The eerie of  wind  whispering by; I can hear it. What it says is just mine.

He held me in his arms and blew the back of my ears. He uttered these lines, "the heavens, the oceans and the earth are my witnesses to these moments I shared with you" I was speechless for no words can ever tell my happiness.

Time passed so quickly that we need to head home. Rain started to pour heavily, and the road was almost none to be seen. We drove back home filled with hopes and dreams. We told ourselves, we will come back here another day. Another day to meet our witnesses and another day to renew our "Promises".